There’re things I told her, but don’t tell her often enough. Things I didn’t want to admit, or I’m scared to say. There are things she should know, and I want to tell her soon.
- I don’t hate you (I may did a little in past, but it had nothing to do with you).
- I took your side so many times (with him, family or friends), you have no idea.
- I was jealous of your past together so much it was driving me crazy.
- I cried so many times because of “you” (you never done anything but I had so much BS in my head).
- I’ve been helping him to understand you.
- I’ve never tried to replace you as a mum.
- I respect you and how you handle being a single mum.
- Sometimes I’m scared to say or do something because it may upset you.
- I want you to be truly happy and find the love of your life.
- I put myself into your shoes all the time (and push him to do the same).
- I don’t parent your daughter I’m a part of co-parenting.
- You must be so strong!
- I wish things were not so awkward.
- I’m worried about how I’ll feel about your daughter when I’ll have my own child.
- Do you want to go for a drink?
One extra thing
- Being a step-mum is a crazy and scary roller coaster ride!
People struggle with communication in general and I find communication with ex-wives quite tricky, not because they’re monsters but because we let our feelings and emotions be in charge of ourselves.
Every time before I call his ex-wife I get that horrible feeling in my belly but as soon we speak it goes away. My tip is before you talk to his ex-wife put yourself in her shoes, think about what do you want to communicate and why. As a step-mum you need to find the right balance so you don’t distance yourself too much and push people away.
In my case it is a work in progress and it’s time to take it to another level.